Don’t just follow your heart, because your heart can be deceived. You have to LEAD your heart. -Fireproof
Today, I learned that a man I knew recently passed away. His name was Mr. Jaque. Now, Im gonna be honest. I never liked Mr. Jaque. He was a substitute at my school, and I found him to be incredibly loud, obnoxious, and arrogant. I couldn’t stand the man.
And when Mom came in to tell me that he passed away, I felt so guilty. I began to pray for his family, and I began to ask for forgiveness. No, BEG for forgiveness. Man, Im such a sinner. Just yesterday I was reading the sermon on the mount, where Jesus says that loving your enemies if much harder and much more rewarding than loving those who loves you back. But I just read it like a book, in no way applying it to my life.
I looked at Mr. Jaque through my eyes. Not God’s. My Abba Father, lover of my soul, saw this man as His own child. And I saw him as an annoying teacher. I didn’t even know how to spell his name, let alone consider him of relevance to me at all.
Dad, forgive me. Forgive me forgive me forgive me. I say it everyday. God, I am so worthless… I deserve nothing of your perfection. Yet you give it anyways. Forgive me for not living like your son lived. Forgive me for not loving like your son lived. Forgive me for judging, and not reserving judgement for you, the Almighty Judge. Bless Mr. Jaque’s family, and help them through this trying time. And help me to learn that my only goal in life is being like You. I am your humbled child.. Amen.
"I know you’ve never felt it, but it’s a moment beyond belief. Society has ruined the idea of it, the importance of it. But when God is in the relationship.. it’s so much different. ‘It’s just a kiss,’ they say. But to say that is like saying the Grand Canyon is ‘just a hole in the ground’ or Mt Everest is ‘just a small hill.’ It’s so much more.
Because your spiritual walks are already close. Because it’s not just a dumb teenage relationship. Because you waited. Because you both know it’s more than a physical action.
It’s a bonding. A bonding of emotion, spirit, and body.
Society has ruined the kiss because it’s done so much. Because people throw it around like it’s nothing.
So I urge you, wait. Im not saying wait until your married, or you’ve been dating for years, or your engaged. Im saying, wait until you are so spiritually bonded that what comes next is an action that spins your whole world.
Im saying, wait until your relationship is so based on God that it wouldn’t survive or exist without it. because that’s when it makes your world spin.
Didn’t you know, God blesses things that he supports?
Give him the chance to. It won’t just be your first kiss. It’ll be the moment when God manifests himself totally and entirely in a relationship based solely on him.
I wish.. I could be in that moment already. I wish I could skip everything else. I wish I could be there, married, with a couple kids, teaching sunday school, kinda/sorta poor and surviving only on love of family and God. I wish I could have the love of my life, just handed to me. No wooing. No dating. Just God saying ‘This is your man. He’s yours. He loves you, and you love him. You will bring each other closer to me, together.’
But I know I can’t. So Im gonna trust in God, and go through life, and wait for him to send me that guy. Or maybe, he won’t send me one. Maybe he wants me to go at it alone. Whatever he wants, Im chillaxxin in his grace, and his love.
Yeah, you. I wanted to tell you something.
If you think you aren’t good enough.
If you think you can’t do anything right.
If you feel like nobody loves you.
If you want more out of life.
If you’re struggling with temptation.
I have some news for you:
YOU. ARE. LOVED.
by me, and by my Abba Father.
God, watch over the person reading this. Open their eyes. Open their heart. Fill up their life with every ounce of love you can fit in. Amen.
So I have this blind dog. Mandy. She’s adorable. And today, my Mom asked me to take her on a walk. It was 9:00 at night, and pitch black out, but hey; she’s blind, Im not gonna let her run around peeing all over the house.
I live on a cow farm, and my driveway is a half a mile long, so I started down the driveway. About 3 steps in, I realized I had just stepped in a giant pile of cow poo. Awesome. But I kept going, because I love my dog.
I got about a half a mile down the driveway, and turned around. I took a few more steps and stopped, because I couldn’t feel Mandy walking. It turned out she had managed to squeeze under the barbed wire fence into the cow field. UGH.
I spent 10 minutes trying to get her back through, and ended up having to climb over the fence. But her chain was stuck in a giant plant, and I spent another 5 minutes trying to get it unstuck. I then had to carry her a half mile back to the house. Over hilly, marshy, smelly cow field land. It was awful.
It taught me 2 things. 1. Pay attention when you’re taking your blind dog on a walk. 2. God does SO MUCH for us.
I know what you’re thinking. 'Where did you get THAT???' ( dont worry. people think that a lot when I say things. )
But think about it. I love my dog so much, I walked through cow poo, climbed a barbed wire fence, and carried my slightly large blind dog a half a mile.
How much more does God do for us? Picture it. We’re the blind dogs. We’re just wondering aimlessly through life, not always really listenin to what God says. Then we decide to do our own thing, and get into some really CRAPPY situations (stuck under a barbed wire fence). But God still helps us. He climbs over the fence. He gets our chain unstuck. He CARRIES us through the bad situations, He CARRIES us through the heartache, and he CARRIES us through the pain.
When was the last time you stopped to think about the things God carries YOU through?
"All our troubles. All our failures. God our justice. God our refuge.
1 noun1.that which is carried; load:
Burdens. What are burdens? Things we carry. Things that hold us down. Things that keep us from being what God wants us to be.
Burdens stick in our thoughts. Sometimes they take over our mind. But the problem is… we don’t do anything about it.
We are Burdened into Thought. Not action. THOUGHT.
Thoughts about how we wish we were. Thoughts about what could change. Negative thoughts, thoughts that cause depression, thoughts that PULL US AWAY FROM GOD.
This morning, at church, we were challenged; If you are burdened, not into THOUGHT, but into ACTION, stand up. Stand up, and we will pray. Pray not that the burden would be lifted, but that we would have the power of God to stand up to that burden, to act on it, and to overcome it.
Stop letting burdens overcome your thoughts. let them overcome your ACTIONS. trust not in the things of God, but in the God of THINGS, to take your burden and trade them in for glory.
And all our tears.
God our hope.
He has overcome.
And all our fear.
God our love.
He has overcome.
God our grace.
God our freedom.
He has overcome.
God our strength.
God is with us.
He has overcome.”
"All our troubles.
All our failures.
God our justice.
God our refuge.
BEST FRIEND DAY;
1 year. 1 year since I truly, TRULY became best friends with Catherine Anne Hawley. She’s awesome. She lifts me up more than almost anyone. When the whole world is bringing me down, she texts me with a verse, or an encouraging saying, or maybe just lyrics to ‘Your Song’ by Elton John (our best friend song). She lifts me up in my walk with Christ, and I love her more than I love sliced cheese.
'Dear Catherine, I think YOUUUREEE AWEESOOMMEEE. Love, Anna Grace.'
'I hope you don't mind, I hope you dont mind, that I put down in words.. how wonderful life is now you're in the world.' :)
How often have I heard that word? And yet I don’t always put it into action. Today, I had to.
You see, my brother is leaving. My oldest brother, Mathieu, just got a new job. In Michigan.
But it’s not just any job. he’s going to be a music pastor. a minister.
I am so much like my brother. Almost more than anyone else. We have the same personality, the same outlook on life.
Ive watched him change from a misbehaving young boy, to a curious, weird teenager, to a godly young man. And today I watched him accept the charge of God to bring people to glory. I watched him hold hands with his wife as they began a journey into the unknown, a journey that will require massive amounts of one thing. FAITH.
But they aren’t the only ones that need faith. It’s hard, you know. Watching someone you love go so far away. I have to have faith. My family has to have faith. Faith in Mathieu’s walk with God. Faith that God will carry him through every struggle, because we can’t be there.
But more than anything.. Im proud of him. With all the struggles he’s had to go through, he’s grown into someone I respect. Someone I look up to. Someone that my parents are proud to call their son, but more importantly, someone God is proud to call his son.